I just don't know...
2008-04-17, 10:06 p.m.

I'm feeling kind of hopeless. I'm thinking that it's just the PMS, and I've not actually lost hope. It still bothers me though.

I'm also feeling kind of random. It's probably due to the hellacious day that I've had. My brain is in "distract" mode. Work sucks. It really does. Retail is the worst possible business to be in. I'm so serious. Don't work in retail. It's like a vacuum. You'll get sucked in, and there will be no chance of escape.

SUGIZO takes pretty pictures. This one makes me want to bite him:

I painted my nails a light blue purple-ish color. I put a ton of nifty glitter on the top. I sparkle. Whoo.

I spent two hours outside listening to music after work. I couldn't believe the weather. It was amazing. It was so warm. Everything was perfect... It made me really miss being a kid.

I've been playing a video game called Genji: Dawn of the Samurai. It's really fun. It's kind of a button masher though, but that's okay sometimes.

I keep getting text messages from silly boys that I don't want to talk to. Yes. Plural. And if they don't stop demanding my attention and calling me sexy I'm going to pour boiling hot toxic waste down their pants. Leave. Me. The. Fuck. Alone. (Unless you're Aoi...then you can do whatever the hell you want...)

I wish that I had friends that listened to Jrock like I do. Then at least someone would understand me when I start babbling. The looks that I get when I talk about the musicians that I love are getting old. YES. They're Japanese. YES. I can pronounce their names. YES. I can tell them apart. Why are you tilting your head at me and looking at me like that? Is it really such a hard concept? Are you incapable of enjoying music that isn't in your native tongue? Did you get dropped on your head as an infant? Is that why you're so ignorant? I fucking hate it.

I give Mandy credit though. I've definitely sparked her interest. I give Matt credit too...but mostly for putting up with us.

Blah.

I'm really grumpy right now.
I'm not even hungry or anything.
I've been awake since 6:30am.
I'm sad that Miyavi is doing 4 shows in Los Angeles-- & I won't be there.
See? There I go again.

Could someone do me a favor and buy me everything @ http://visualshoxx.blogspot.com? It would also help me out if you bought me everything on this website too. I'd be a happy duck. Hah. I need a fucking credit card. I'd drown in fluffy pink Oshare debt. I really would.

I think it's time for a video. I've been listening to Miyavi for the last few hours, so I think it's only fair that I post one of his. Here's "Kimi ni Negai wo." It's one of my favorite songs in the entire world.

Well damn. I don't know what to do with myself once I get off of here. I'd study, but I just don't have the energy. Plus there's always Saturday. I work 8-5. I work 1-10 tomorrow, so I don't really need to go to bed yet. I'm not sleepy or anything.

Oh, Tanja is definitely in for the "Crue Fest" extravaganza. Tickets go on sale Saturday at 10am. They're $62.50 for pavillion seats. Now tell me how ironic it is that I just rolled $60 in change. Gee, I wonder if that will be a habit from now on...

I'm getting kind of fed up with my writer's block. How in the hell am I supposed to write decent fanfics when I can't even come up with a decent plot? Grrrr!!! It's driving me nutty!!!!!

There's a groundhog outside my window. He's making lots of noise. He better not dig anymore holes in my yard. *grumble*

Pool chemicals make my skin itch. I learned that today. One of my tasks was to fill them. I didn't exactly enjoy myself. I also didn't enjoy the scavenger hunt that I had to go on to find them all. I'm telling you, retail sucks. Luckily for me all my co-workers kick ass. It's true. Even our Loss Prevention guy is a huge fan of The Exies. What more can you ask for?

I think I need to shut out the world and watch one of the GazettE's DVD's now. Nothing else sounds appealing. Consider it a back rub and some warm tea. Ooooh...tea. I want some Green Tea. Like. Now.

Bye.

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