Everything Sucks
2008-05-10, 9:16 p.m.

If that chick on eBay thinks she's going to outbid me on my Aoi necklace, she is sadly mistaken. My high bid is now a whopping $50, the actual winning bid is currently at $28. Let's hope it stays there. I'm going to be completely broke for a week because of this thing. Don't. Care. However, if I do lose, at least I'll have the satisfaction of having made the bid over $50. It will then TRULY suck to be her.

In other news, I'm still not really feeling any better about things. I wonder how long it's going to be before someone cares enough to ask me what's wrong. It's astounding to me how quiet it's been. Absolutely FUCKING astounding.

I also wonder why every single time I start feeling like this, someone has to try to out-do me. It's like I'm not allowed to be the most depressed person in the club. There's always someone WAY more dramatic than I am.

Also, how is it that whenever someone else is feeling crappy, they immediately come to me for advice, but when I'm the one that's feeling crappy, every one runs away and ignores me? What the bloody hell? Could someone explain this to me? Do I have cooties or something? Or does everyone just use me?

I wonder if I'll ever be worth fighting for...

So my parents and I made our way out to Frankenmuth today since I have to work all day on Mother's Day. We shopped, we ate. I bought a hot pink stuffed flamingo and named it Ruki-san. There's really not much else to tell you.

I passed out for an hour when I got home. My head still hurts. I still want to punch something.

I'm going to bed.

BTW, the PV is "Pieces" by L'Arc~en~Ciel.

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