So[done]
2008-06-23, 8:30 p.m.

I really love this echostream song:

So yes, as you may have read earlier, I broke it off with him. It's not just that I realized that I wasn't ready for a serious relationship right now. It's the fact that he was unbearably clingy in a matter of 2 days. For Pete's sake he was talking about marriage and shit. I'm like, WTF? It's not even like that.

I hate it when guys are like that. It lets you know how desperate they really are. I just want to have fun, you know? I want there to be suspense leading up to the first kiss. I want there to be excitement. A little game of hard to get. But I want it to be electrifying. I don't want it to be a slow sizzle, woot, let's get married and have kids.

As lame as it is to say this, I really do think I need the bad boy type. I need someone who is in touch with their masculinity. I'm so sick of all these wimpy little boys that want my attention. If you're going to shake my hand, then fucking shake my hand. It's not going to break, damnit. Does any of this make sense?

So now, I'm for real giving up on looking for love. As of right now, I'm done. If it finds me, well then that's great. Other than that, it's not even an issue. I just need some alone time. I need to finish growing up. I need to figure out who the hell I am, and what the fuck I want to do with the rest of my life.

All right. So now I'm going to go paint my nails an incredibly bright shade of red, and restart Final Fantasy VII. Oh, and eat chocolate. Yes. I'm going to do that too.

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