So Close...
2008-07-07, 12:40 a.m.

I feel like absolute shit right now. Like the worst friend ever. I didn't even do anything wrong. So why is it that I feel like this?

Sometimes I'm just overwhelmed by unexplainable sadness. It usually only happens when I think about my reality. About my day to day life. It's such a rut. It's maddening.

I need something new. Some fresh air. different scenery. I need to get away from my family. I need to get away from this job. I need to fucking start over.

Everything reminds me of the past. I don't want to remember the majority of my past. There's nothing but bad relationships there, and backstabbing friends.

I'm nothing like I used to be. I am so far from that person that it makes me cringe to think that we share the same history. I'm the polar opposite of that pathetic little child. I need her to fade away.

I just want to pack my bags and leave.

[sowhatintheFUCKisstoppingme?]

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